Category Archives: My Thoughts

Response to a Fan – Why do you write these stories?

I had a reader reach out to me recently and to protect the “innocent”, I am keeping her identity secret.  She asked me why I write stories about the transgendered community… in fact, her exact words were “Why do you write about crossdressing fags?”

I have never been shy about wanting feedback, good or bad, but this one struck a nerve.  For those who have read my work, I am more than just an erotica writer.  My decision to write about the transgendered community is a personal one, but not completely private.  My interest in writing about transgendered individuals is because of my introduction and experiences in the lifestyle.  While not my choice, I accepted my circumstances and made my confusing experiences a part of my everyday life.

I draw from my experiences when I write.  Sometimes they are pure sexual fantasy, but many times, they are memories that inspire me to tell a greater story.  As much as we don’t like labels, the world has accepted them for the most part, but a label, unfortunately, is not just a word. Some labels breed emotions that we would rather not see or hear about.  It was clear this reader was not a fan – of me or the community, but the label she used breeds a sense of disgust and hatred and for some of us in the LGBTQ community – especially those who are confused and still searching for their identity – it forces us deeper into secrecy and adds to the depression.

When other communities are attacked as we have seen recently – with those of different skin colors or different religious beliefs – there are political statements made – some more extreme than others, but our community is equally at risk but does not receive the attention it deserves – even when the political statements are made.  Mainly because some in the community would rather their lives remain private.  The real reason why is confusing, to say the least, but centered around society’s opinions… “it is not normal”… “they are all gay”… “it goes against religion”… or “it is psychological and can be cured like any disease”.  These and other reasons are thrown around all the time… and to this day, I still have yet to hear the real reason society is against the community… by the way it is the same reason society has attacked other communities… “FEAR.”

The fear that those of a certain skin color are assumed guilty of a crime or that those who have specific religious beliefs are assumed to be terrorists is just WRONG.  For the LGBT community, the fear is even more confusing… fear of sex in the streets, or the possibility of spreading infectious diseases or worse that there will be a recruitment or mass conversion of heterosexuals to become homosexuals.  This is not what the community is about.

So to the reader who had the courage to reach out to me – thanks for your feedback, but I think you are misguided and may need to be better educated about the community.  Why do I write about “Crossdressing Fags” as you put it?  Because I am a crossdressing bi-sexual who loves to tell stories about what I have seen, heard and felt.  I write to entertain and I can;t please everyone, but if I can entertain just one, then that is enough for me.




Being Published… Is it just about the numbers?

I have been publishing work for a little over a year now and have found it very gratifying.  The draw to my work by readers could be better, but when you consider I only advertise on twitter and the web site, the interest is really more than I could have hoped.  It did however get me thinking about publishing and why we want to publish.


We publish for different reasons.  For some of us it is all about the money.  For others its about the message the author wants to convey.  Truth be told there are a number of reasons why we write and publish.  So why do you write?  Is your writing validated by publishing?


That is the tougher question.  Validating your work through publishing can increase our confidence and motivate us… but why?  Is it just to see your name on the cover?  I tend to look at this from the standpoint of the reach my work actually gets. Publishing can definitely boost our confidence and drive us to do more sometimes, but when your work doesn’t draw interest in the form of unit sales, that confidence can turn into a depressed attitude and become more discouraging because your message is either not being heard or no one is really interested in what you want to say.


This was me.  I wanted to tell a story… or a number of stories in my case and I started with a memoir that I know wouldn’t sell, but seeing that first copy arrive in the mail was extremely gratifying.  I was officially published.  It drove me to want more.  So much so that I started to watch unit sales hourly for awhile – especially when I wrote a new piece.  That is when the frustration set it, because while I saw eBook sales or KENP Pages go up, the unit sales just were not where I wanted.


Now I just received my first copies of all of my printed books and the frustration is still there, but not as much as before, because I notice that the eBook route is a better route than the printed.  I realized that a printed copy has more value to me or to a reader who I have impacted enough to want to keep the story closer to them – a moment of sorts.  The eBooks are for the story lovers that can’t get enough and who just love to read.


So, think about why you write first, then figure out if you want to share that story – knowing that not everyone will enjoy it, then figure out if it is worth the extra time and effort to publish it.


Good Luck,